you know what's the best feeling in the world? it's to see your loved ones healthy and happy.

talking to mike led me to this sudden entry which i have already procrastinated for very long. just currently thinking about gran suddenly. it was a total shock when i heard both of my old folks were hospitalized for something i dint even expect. angry when i dint get the news from my dad. upset when i saw how upset and depressed my grampys were. i remembered that very visit. gran wasn happy with the situation she was in. gramp wasnt happy at how he couldn cheer her up. it was one word. heartbreaking.

CNY came and went. i had a special one this year. got permission from my mom to have reunion dinner with the paternal folks. and to say the truth, i was elated, excited, delirious or whatever synonym you can come up with. hoho. it's been 14 freaking years since i had this reunion dinner with everyone else. it was just AWESOME! (: there was nothing special actually. everyone was just sitting around, chatting happily but that was good enough (: grampy and gran were happy and i was relieved to see that this time round, she's all well and fine now. at least she could walk around without help. the feeling was indescribable (:

last last friday was a special friday. i mean, walking into the house with both my folks in on a friday night is totally random. walking into the house with both my folks eating pizza together makes it weirder. that special night, we were a family for 4hours. it's a more than once a blue moon event, i would say. in fact, i was actually secretly anticipating it. haha! still, it's nice to know that the both of them are still friends after all those stupid years. and it's nice to pretend that im returning home to two instead of one and knowing that i no longer desire for the unrealistic. instead, it was just a quick and casual moment for me to relieve and laugh at. i doubt anyone understands it, really. but it was fun. hee! (: