tomorrow's e last day of e hols! oh man, for e first time in my life, im really having mixed feelings for e end of it.

in cedar, it used to be anticipating school cuz well, it's just cedar man! that school is definitely love, even till now. smhow, it's just e best thing that happened to me! if not for cedar, track wouldn be possible. i mean, when i first entered track, everyone couldn belived it! one even went like 'sep are you sure you can run? you look like you have jelly legs!' that comment stuck ever since man. anw, cedar taught me perseverance too. working against your will, and pushing your limits till you shine, bright as a gem. for that, im really grateful i entered a school that i never initially wanted to.

and in ijc, it used to be i-hate-school thing for me day in, day out. no matter how bad or how bored e hols were, i rather just nua and roll around in bed e entire day than go school man. in fact, e hols werent even like hols! just full of mugging for e tests/exams right aft hols. urgh.

so now, not that i love tp of whatsoever, but it isnt too bad. culinary prac next sem. it's really smth that my 1j03 has been anticipating for. we were actually disappointed that it's only gonna be for a sem! it's just all e military style that's gonna make it difficult i feel. all e 'yes chef', 'no chef', punctuality problems, being neat, long days lasting from 8am to 6pm and all. but ah well, i know at the end of all these, everyone is just gonna look back and reminisce e entire tiring process man. i know it's all gonna be worth it. no pain, no gain! ((:

tho e fact that there is a change in e classes next sem, e fact that most of us are feeling sore about it is just that we are comfortable w e old clique alr. e fact that it's what your class does that makes you wanna wake up early and trek all e way to school despite e really urgh distance. e fact that they make you laugh and go crazy about. (okay im really stuck w expressing my thoughts here) since everyone is feeling this way, why not just look forward to making new friends since everything started with that initiation with e previous class anw? im not being dense but i guess, just trying to make oneself feel better. weird coming from a person like me, one who stones and refuse to interact w new pple. just that i thought, if friends are really friends, they are there inside your heart, no matter what. it just takes a lil more effort to keep them where you want them to be. but oh wells, old friends are still love i know! (: they are just that special. like mans. bleag.

anw, waking up at 5am for e last few days were really worth it man. e freshies were not so bad aft all. i mean, i think my batch is e nightmare of every SL man. we refuse to cheer, to eat, to play games and to bond. we just wanted to stone! hahahs. 1j03 has indeed come a long way man. not really a outspoken person but i guess i really did tried my best to engage w e freshies. observed them a lil and they arent too bad a bunch! (: e reasons some of them gave to why they chose ccm really tickled me man. aww.. anw, it was a really an experience that kinda push me outta my comfort zone.