man, i've got so many things to talk about! but urgh, im really simply too tired to think of the perfect words to match what im feeling/thinking inside. so thr! let's see how it turns how tonight, it's a friday night anw! ((:

alright, i caught the game plan w tat on tues yet again. man, it's those sort of shows that really hit me hard through and through. whatever e dad did, whatever that took places between him and e lil girl, it's all just too nostalgic or rather i should say, it's just a small part of me desires for it to happen. ah well, tears were just streaming down continuously. that scene whr he runs to e hosp w his daughter felt like then when my dad drove me to e hosp in sucha hurry that we ended up in an car accident. in a way, i do knws he cares and bothers. just that prob like most dads, he doesnt understand how to go about doing it. e way he nags at me about me wasting money in a poly kinda pisses me off initially, but oh wells. he's e dad man, and dads have weird ways of loving their daughters. hahahs! (actually, i feel kinda crappy saying all these) ah well, i just want him to be strong and yep, healthy.

anw crap, thr's so much work due next week!

oh yea, thr was a campus run on friday. wasnt really a good run but oh wells, im glad tho! it's been eons since i last took part in smth like that. tho e spirit and energy was really lacking throughout e 6mins, but it's really good to feel myself pushing through the whole thing right there on the track. i don't know, it's kinda indescribable, like how pk felt for her nball game i guess? oh wells ((:

man, thr seemed to be so many deaths occurring around me recently. it kinda unsettled me a lil. realized i don't exactly love e feeling of being attached to smth so closely since it would only drag the spirit and soul. i mean, it just feels so urgh to have smth drags you down when it probably, maybe wouldn be a necessity for it to exist. ah well, the pros and cons i guess. alright, i do feel a lil bratty at times like this. wanting to get my way but feeling absolutely far too lazy to do so. just caught between such decisions and some need for understanding on my part. oh well! as long as indifference still plays their part, this should be alright. i do know it would be a difficult task right from e start. darn those naggy feelings for having their teeths gnawing nonstop at me! ):