urgh. you know what? i hate being bored. esp in the middle of the night whr doing everything but slping is unhealthy. and yea, the obvious thing to do now of course is to just head straight to bed and snooze away. but it has been such a habitual thing to stay up that it's rather impossible, or perhaps even insane to say that 'hey im visiting the city of lambs NOW!' tho, i dont really know what im waiting for, in e gloom of the night. oh wells.

anw, boredom has clearly revealed the hunger in many. okay yea, literally hungry for food and hunger in many other stuffs. desperation in social life (not really), visuals that one doesnt really focus on, music and sounds being just another random thing to focus another one of your senses on, or maybe just yummy edibles to keep some parts of you moving which is kinda a bad habit since it brings along e feeling of being bloated, indigested, and uh-huh the ultimate three letter word that strikes fears in many, F-A-T!

urgh. e lack of aim and something that entices you and making you go delirious is getting on people's nerves, rendering them angsty or sleepy. weirdly, boredom strikes sometimes when you don't even have a reason too. you can be surrounded by your best mates, be involved in your loves but yet still bored. right now for me, relaxation is the problem and the solution.

hahah! pardon me, i have just lost my train of thought. things don't often go as what one wants it to be. im so not making sense in the above paragraph although right there in my head, the bottomline is as naked and bare as it can be. maybe it's just the lack of vocabulary that has somehow hinder my sense of expression. urgh. my eyes seemed clouded tho they aren't and my brain feels fuzzy wuzzy, with a lil air space right on top.

thr's 1001 things to plan and to decide upon. thr's a very good reason why i should be aslp now. thr's another reason why i shouldn be sitting here but somewhr else. thr's also things that i can do and enjoy (like whipping smth up in the kitchen). but urgh. hahhahs! nth entices me tonight, not even food man! (cuz it's giving me fat cheeks and thighs) hurhur.

anw, watching 881 today has made me realized that im an experienced player in the game of indifference. okay, it's either that or i had difficulties understanding the dialect.


that very street of trees on a friday night