my biological clock is kinda screwed up! im doing things i dont normally do. like walking around in the middle of e nights along e streets. staring up at the sparkling stars spread across the velvet sky. along w the cool breeze of the night and good company, it's almost perfect. tho my mom not exactly happy bout the whole idea. guess i shall restrain myself a lil.. not too often of it. a lil treat of such nightly prowls makes me cherish it more. LOL!

that was a random rant.

perhaps i still cant stand seeing stitch in a different light. i cant exactly believe when and how did i fallen so deep. the whole issue sort of changed me tho. kinda cant stand pple being nice to me anymore. like it totally pisses me off and get me all paranoid. like 'hey wth, what do u want!'. esp when they come to you with a certain motive and expect you to believe that they will be thr now and forever. it was crap to me before and now it's even worse. perceptual defence? maybe.

im really jaded from e silly thoughts and all. stand strong! haha! like what pk says. so gonna ignore ignore ignore, yea ignorance is bliss and so is indifference. and all thoughts arises from emo attacks on e way home. along w a couple of nonsensical stuffs.

oh i guess my dad is really pissed w me this time. he have not transferred me my allowance. so not gonna ask from him. bah. pride sucks. hahaah! i mean, he thinks im staying in poly just to go against him. wish he could understand how i feel all these yrs man. tho i totally understand he wants the best for me but im sure uni is not the only option?! i may be wrong but that's for me to regret in the future. at least i wont blame anyone then.

anw, thanks for accompanying me tonight man! i really appreciate it (: and yes, thankyou din for the ice water, container, fork and spoons and i duno what.

e entries seem to be getting more and more nonsensical. they dont link.



when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight
why dint they say the transition was THIS long?